December, what the what?

I expected a lot to come with the entrance of good ol' December. Many if not most things remain the same. How is that discouraging? How is it not the pessimist T asks. Lately I have had to make actual lists of things I'm grateful for and/or an itemized list of 12 why Jesus deserves my adoration. Things come up of course, but they are currently small. I blame the fact that my contacts are overdue to be renewed. But still, I cannot grasp a stable hold of my unmoving vehicle. Why is it so bumpy when its not even moving?

The job hunt continues to be my everest. And I have on a faux North Face, so easily it's definitely too cold for this climb. jfdhauishsohiws. It's actually gotten to a point where I considered being a yoga instructor or a chiropractic technician because those positions seem to be rampant in orange county. Time has flown and I can hardly catch up my breath. And yet I still have no idea how I am supposed to seek the Kingdom and all that is righteous.

I want to change the world, but still I sleep.

I'm either sleeping via daydreaming or going to the gymnasium. Unfortunately, less body fat does not fulfill my wonderment. But since it's the most wonderful time of the year, I will let the snow fall aka, hot winds, on my face and thank the good Lord for another day with laughter, friends, family, and good coffee.

Thanks for letting me take you on my usual roller coaster of self wallowing to outward praising. It's necessary I've learned and you've read it yourself.

This is about a girl who wants to change the world. So I will get up, since my faith has made me well.

Counting reindeers and blessings,

Tracy