Today I am human

Assuming I have an old alarm clock and make coffee every morning, I definitely woke up late and never plugged in the Mr. Coffee this morning. Or at least that was the vibe that was set for me today.

I interviewed at what seemed to be repetitiveville to where I attended to my failed attempts to find an actual place with actual interest and validity and actual income. To momentarily forget my efforts, I took myself to the Spectrum to do some retail therapy. I wish I catered to my physical health than my physical clothe but it is what is, I ams who I ams. Unfortunately, I was able to find some steals to ease my burdensome heart, but I was left still feeling defeated, plus more broke. And though I rarely admit defeat, today I was human. And all I could see was

And I let it get me down for a solid hour (this was during the time I was probably contemplating a quarter button-up striped men's tee, but still aching of course). And I actively kept in mind today's bible devotional and how it was about not complaining, because I ain't no Izzyraelite. But there I was, caught in the act. I guess I wasn't blatantly complaining, but it's clear now I was disguising it with an attitude of exhaustion and defeat. But I am human, and thank the Lord, He is a little more useful that I. So I took about two handfuls of deep breathes to realize again, He is good. And He wants me to see passed the instant picture. And that I just have to either focus or roll the window down.

Learning & Trusting,

T